Every day with him is precious, but it is these special days that I will really miss when there is an extra little person. I'm sure they will be just as amazing if not more with both of my boys around, but there is something about our mother-son bonding days that I will always treasure.
Some days we take a walk into town, and I have him in the parent facing buggy so we sing all the way down, giggling as we walk. I let him out and we explore the little things together, from jumping in puddles to pointing out every single car we see. We may go into a little cafe, and share a cake. I may treat him to some juice, and let him drink it from a big cup with a straw. It is just the two of us though, and we go off into our own little world where nobody else exists.
Sometimes our special times are at home, and we will crawl around the living room floor together giggling and making silly noises, before collapsing in a heap and having the most perfect cuddles.
Sometimes our special moments are when we are killing time and we make up our own games and get lost in them.
Every time is different, but every time I am aware that we are sharing something so special, so perfect and that we will never have that particular experience again. I try my hardest to take in every little bit of his beautiful smile and remember the sound of his laugh. I take mental pictures of us running along the seafront together or sat in the cafe having a cuddle and a glass of milk. Most of the time I am too busy enjoying myself to even think about getting my camera out.
We do all of these things often, but for some reason today felt different - special. Maybe it is knowing that our little family will be a little bigger by the end of this month. Maybe it was just a good day. Either way, it was a perfect one. I really hope that when the new baby arrives, Dylan and I can still have our special times. That he will still look at me with those bright blue eyes and cheeky grin like no-one else matters. I hope that Squish and I can have our own special times too, us against the world.