Change

Change is necessary,  it is natural.  We all get older and wiser, change direction, move around and evolve.  It feels like we are all in a period of such change at the moment that sometimes I have to take a step back to see where we are going.

Dylan is fast losing his toddler traits and becoming a little boy.  Last week saw me finally decide on a preschool for September after weeks of deliberation.  This will be Dylan's first time in this kind of setting as he has never been enrolled in a nursery and it marks the beginning of something big.  It is only just over a year until we will be getting ready for school and that thought terrifies me.  

Preschool will mean other influences, other people to give magic kisses and wipe any tears away.  I won't know everything he does and everything he says any more.  It took a while to decide where to send him as I wasn't one hundred percent sure on any of the options, but in the end we chose one with a specific pre school unit, where he will share a room with 25 other children who are preparing for school including many of his friends.  I know that he is ready, but I am not sure that I am.

Archie seemed to have grown up overnight once those first steps turned to walking and I can't believe the transformation.  Much of this is me letting go a little of the baby he was, as until recently he often wore sleepsuits and rompers all day.  Now that he is on his feet all day we have introduced more jeans and with his little shoes as well he is starting to look more and more like a toddler.

Archie is making efforts to say words now and he is communicating in his own little way.  In his head he is already as big as his brother and he refuses to be treated like a baby, wanting to do everything a two year old can do and more.  Despite my desire to keep him as my little baby, Archie is in a huge rush to grow up.  

And as for me, I have finally given up the job I have been doing for years and have taken the brave step to work from home doing something I love.  It is completely a step in the right direction, but it is full of change.  I have to keep myself motivated and focused and I am constantly learning.  

I think the only one in the family who seems settled where he is, is the bloke!

Change is necessary and natural.  It is how we move forward, become the people we are going to be and it seems to be happening everywhere, as the wet winter turns to spring, as our boots go away to be replaced with flip flops, as the boys learn new skills and their relationship changes, as we head towards a third birthday and then a twenty-seventh.

Is it just us or is this spring time meaning change for everyone?